I have now been on packing holidays hunting for banana boxes and stuffing things into plastic bags for two weeks. It’s an emotional roller coaster like they say in reality shows (now I understand what they meant) but as long as I am not stressed by unexpected bureaucratic requirements it feels actually just great.
I have also worked my last days at my “regular” job after so many years and there were some mixed feelings there too. I started off there as a student, continued as a temp tech, and finally as a permanent part of the staff. I went through many phases and some tough times throughout those 13 years but I also met lots of people and some of my current best friends and came closer to figuring out what I really wanted to do with my life so I am super thankful to have had this opportunity and for the choices I made in the past. For days after leaving on my last day I kept thinking about how fast it went to empty my office and walk away leaving almost no traces after being there for so long, carrying just a backpack and a shopping bag. It felt strange, but on the other hand I had been thinking about that day for so long that it also felt very natural. And now, after our good-bye lunch two days ago it feels even more natural. I just have to say this, our colleagues organized the nicest full-on lunch for us, they even cooked vegan food! Norway being the country of bring-your-own-bread-lunch… I was just very impressed and moved, it was super both for the soul and for the stomach. I also got to hear some really nice words and even managed to hold my first speech ever. It was so nice, I will always remember it.
Well, banana boxes are piling up and time is running out. At the same time I am constantly trying to remind myself to try and enjoy these last weeks (it’s not even months anymore) as well as being efficient, but it is hard to get enough time for everything. I guess I am looking at more days of intense mood swings going from total-happiness-this-is-so-right-self-confidence-boost mood to total panic-freak-out-WTF mood. All very normal I guess. The only thing that bugs me a bit is that this has just started, how on earth are these emotional Latino-Swedes going to cope with it all? That remains to be seen so keep in touch and follow tight!
Now, back to packing.